My dear boy,

You’re the first. Not my first to go to school but the first I’ve ever worried about sending to school. Oh, I worried about your big sister for a second but that quickly disappeared. And your big brother never really had me worried because he was ready and willing to go. But you, you have had me worried since you were about 2. You’re my clinger. My worrier and watcher. The one who wouldn’t let me walk out the door to pick up your siblings or go to the store without you even though you were getting to stay with Daddy. The one who didn’t want to go to Awanas or Sunday School even though your big brother was in the same class. The one who comes and finds me when you think you’ve forgotten to tell me goodnight and give me a kiss. You’re the protector of the littles ones even though one of those little ones bugs you crazy. You’re my nervous, anxious one who’s not as quick to just jump in like your big brother. I don’t like sending you guys to school. I never have and I don’t believe I ever will. But this year I’ve been dreading it more than I ever have in the last six years. So, while we may be prepared with our crayons and pencils, our blanket and pillow and our bookbag and lunchbox this momma is not ready.

However, while this momma may not be ready I’ll still get up, fix that lunch, take those pictures and wave goodbye as I guide your little brother and sister out the door of your kindergarten room. All while praying you have a good day and your big sister and brother watch out for you.

Enjoy your first day! I know you’ll love your teacher! Have a blast and I can’t wait to hear all your stories about this brand new experience! I love you my dear boy.

Love,

Your Mommy